Unbelief lies

under the matted up

leaves

of our mind

when we’ve

put off the raking

for a good, long while.

It doesn’t take much

pawing through

to realize

this heavy mind

is harbouring

layers

upon

layers

of unspoken

worry.

At some point

you dive into the pile

and you

get it sorted.

Unbelief in this pile.
Faith in this pile.

And a lot of extra stuff

I can let the breeze

catch and tug away.

The unbelief pile is heavy

and wet and uninviting.

The faith pile is dwarfed

in comparison.

What am I busy NOT believing?

Where am I welcoming unbelief

to nest in the layers of my heart?

I’m not believing that God holds the stars

and all my ways

and that all things work out for the good.

I’m NOT believing that God is faithful

to his promise to keep me safe

and provide for my every need.

Each day I choose

to pile up another clump

of clinging fear

that scarcity is real

and it’s all on my shoulders

to be the saviour.

It’s time to toss.

Toss worry.

Burn it.

Toss fear.

Toss self-sufficiency.

Toss sweating all the small stuff.

Toss the scarcity-mindset.

The people pleasing.

The me-centeredness.

Toss the sin

of unbeleif.

For faith pleases God.

I need more of that.

It’s time to rake up

that pile of faith

inside of me

till it towers

over doubt.

Till it’s bursting the bags

I try and stuff it into.

Till it’s evidenced in

my words and actions.

And deeply layered

in my thoughts.

I am a woman of faith

NOT of worry.

Faith in God’s faithfulness.

He is my Shield and Rampart.

Faith in His Word

that will never lie or lead me astray.

Faith in God’s ability

in all my inability.

In God’s strong possible

in all our paralyzing impossibles.

Faith in my value, my place

in His heart forever.

Faith in His unending,

storange-rooms-full,

provision,

enough for

all my needs and more.

How’s your pile of faith today?

Dig through your unbelief pile

from time to time

and toss the old

worn out

worries and

doubts.

Rake up the faith

every chance you get.

Stock pile it.

And then

you will find

your rest.